Fall 2005

Dear Journal,
Tomorrow Jessie and I will go to our first class at Oxford. I'm so excited I can barely sleep! Ever since I was a little girl, I had always dreamed of going to Oxford and living in England and now, all of my dreams are about to come true. I have fallen in love with Jessie and to my surprise; she has fallen in love with me as well. I still can't believe that quiet, intelligent, beautiful Jessie Sammler likes/loves… ME! I was pretty sure that she was going to fall for Tad's charms, but she saw through them somehow. I love Tad, he's been one of my best friends for as long as I can remember, but he couldn't make Jessie happy. When I first introduced myself to her in the hallway at her locker, it was like I already knew everything about her. I thought there was something there, but I knew Tad wanted her so I just tried to be good friends with her, because that
would be almost as good as being the one she kissed before she went home. But when we were in her attic and she told me she couldn't throw my letter away, I thought I was going to die. I just couldn't believe that really felt something more for me. Sometimes I still wonder how it ever happened, but hey, I'm not complaining. She has opened so many doors for me. She is my everything and I don't know what I'd do without her. Every time I see her or think of her, I can't help but smile. Jessie makes me feel amazing all over. She is this amazing thing that I don't know how I ever lived without. Her stunning eyes have drawn me in, enrapturing my soul and it's incredible.

I love being here in England because we don't know anyone so we can be more together here than we could back home. I mean, yeah we came out to everyone, but here it was just, different. The majority of the people around here don't really care and even if they disagree with Jessie and I, along with others like us, we don't have to be afraid that they're going to try to commit some kind of hate crime or something. This city, hell, this whole country is a lot more tolerable and accepting than back in the states. Or at least that's how it's seemed since we've arrived here.

Jessie's parents didn't want her staying at the dorms because there had been a whole lot of rumors of the horror stories about the freshman dorms at Oxford and since Rick was a highly known and respected architect, he made a few calls and got us a sweet deal for a really cute loft that was about five minutes from the campus. I love our loft! I remember back when Jessie and I cut school and went to her house. We were talking about visiting each other when we were older and now we're together, living out my dream house. It's just so amazing. I mean there's no other word(s) to describe the feeling. I want to be with Jessie for the rest of my life. If and when we graduate from here and begin the rest of our lives, I would in an instant move with her to a ranch out west somewhere. I want to make all of her dreams and wishes come true. I'd do anything for that girl and not just because I'm madly in love with her or the fact that she's my girlfriend, but even if we were to break up, which if it ever came to that, I honestly don't know if I could go on living; I will always be her friend and I would do anything I could to help her out because of our friendship.

Oh wow, it's almost 4 a.m. I have to get up and get ready at like 6, so I better try and get some sleep. One of the things I love most about being out here in England is being with Jessie almost 24/7. Throughout the summer we had both met some of our own friends, but we still love being with just the other one and falling even more in love. Oxford could be a challenge, being a VERY prestigious school and all, but I have something no one else here, or anywhere else in the world has; I have Jessie. When I get done writing, I get to wrap my arms around Jessie's waist and listen to her breath. That is one of the most soothing and miraculous things I have ever experienced. Her hair smells awesome with a mix of strawberries and that clean, refreshing smell. It's intoxicating. I love everything about that girl, I honestly do. Her kisses are so soft yet so passionate. I want to protect her from anything and everything that could ruin her sweet spirit.

Until Next time,
Katie Singer