Feel Good Lies
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PART 2
And that's how Katie met Jessie.
They looked at each other, smiled and quickly tried to find someone or something
else to look at.
Even Matt wondered what was going on. Hasn't been friends with Katie for a long
time, but he never even imagined she could be this shy.
Since he moved in her apartment five month ago, she had two girlfriends. Well,
maybe not girlfriends, but… girls. And Katie had never been shy, she made the
first step, asked them out, dated them… was always kind, caring and
self-confident.
But that day in the park, she was completely different, she seemed to want to
run away… and there was this sparkling something in her eyes…
He grinned, well, maybe Jessie was really some sort of witch and all the gay
girls and straight guys close to her eventually become crazy. No, Matt thought
to himself, can't be true… I'm just so gay, that I can't see how gorgeous Jessie
is. He glanced at his watch, time to call Kenneth, that guy he met last night.
Katie sat on her sofa watching TV, when the phone rang. It was Tad. They had
been friends in high school and they were still close. Even though they were at
different colleges.
"Hey Tad!"
"Hi Kat. What's up? Just wanted to ask how you're doing."
"Well, I'm great, nothing special happening here."
"Ahh… I can't believe that. No new girl? No parties?"
"No girls, no parties. I'm studying, you know"
"Yes, sure. I know your grades depend on a lot of hard work… as much as they did
in high school," he said sarcastically, "… anyways… you can't tell me there
aren't new people around. The semester just started."
"Matt introduced me to a few, but no one special."
Tad thought a minute. There was something in Katie's voice he knew. Something he
hadn't heard for a long time. He smiled.
"Don't try to fool me!"
"I'm not fooling you! I'm… I'm… ahm…" she began to stutter.
Why? There was no need to stutter. She met Jessie, yes, but there was nothing
special, except for Jessie being breathtakingly cute. They haven't even talked.
She doesn't know this girl.
Katie closed her eyes. Something was wrong at the moment. She couldn't finish a
single thought. Why? Why? Why? Because of her, because of Jessie's eyes, when
they met hers, because of her smile, when she said Hi… Jessie, the girl she'll
never get to know, because her mind was freaking out. She was freaking out.
"Sorry, Tad, I'm just so confused. I haven't even talked to her and she already
posses my every thought."
Katie heard Tad laughing.
"I knew it."
"That doesn't help."
"Oh, Katie. You're asking the wrong man. Girls dump me, you know. You're the
heartbreaker. Do what you always do! Be nice, be charming and she'll be yours."
"Tad, girls dump you, because you have this bisexual-girls-obsession and they
all run away," she smiled to herself, "when they meet girls like me. And, well…
I can't… I can't be charming, when she's close to me… I'm turning into a
speechless idiot."
"Why?"
"Because… because… she's… she…"
"She's someone special?" Tad tried to finish her sentence.
"No! Well, I don't know. I don't know her, she's just, " Katie smiled to
herself, "maybe she's just another hot chick, like all the others."
"Katie, you know me, I'm more the lust and attraction on first sight type of
guy, but in the end… no one knows. Try to get to know her! Maybe she's not just
some girl. Maybe she's the one girl. You'll never know."
"I can't."
"You can."
"I can't."
"Stop it! You'll loose this one. Just think about it! You haven't even talked to
her and you're already lovesick. You can try to fool me, but don't fool
yourself."
Katie had to smile again at his words. If she ever wanted to try to be straight,
Tad would be her first choice. He always tried to be the cool and handsome guy,
but after all he turns out to be Mommy's darling, just like now.
"We'll see."
Jessie walked through the halls to her next course. She wasn't used to this
feeling of being confused all the time. For already a couple of days now she
couldn't concentrate, there was this odd feeling something was missing… but she
couldn't really put her finger on that thought, it vanished from time to time,
but it always came back… hurting her. And what was the worst of it all: Her work
suffered from her lack of concentration. Yesterday she couldn't even read her
notes… She had scribbled them as if she was shaking. She couldn't stand the
thought of failing some of her courses.
Katie was surrounded by a bunch of people as always. In high school she had been
the centre of attention, she had been one of the cool girls, one of those
everyone wants to spent his or her time with… and it was the same in college.
There was always some party she was invited to, some guy trying to ask her out,
some girls trying hard not to be too obvious about the flirting or some of her
closer friends planning lunch or dinner.
But at the moment she couldn't handle all these people. She just stood there,
saying yes, asking why from time to time, but not really listening.
There she is. A smile spread across Jessie's face. Matt's roommate. She seemed
nice, but Jessie didn't dare to talk to her. She talking to one of the cool
girls… was a scary thought. But smiling at her across the hall was ok, nothing
wrong about it.
Jessie suddenly forgot all her worries, her confusion…somehow she felt calm. Oh
no! Oh no! Don't look this way! Don't! Please… Oh, god! How embarrassing…
Katie glanced across the hall and saw Jessie. She was smiling. Jessie was… wait
a sec… she's smiling at me. For another brief moment Katie thought about just
passing out and forgetting about it, but then she decided to smile back. It was
just smiling… no one could tell from her smile she… well, her smile doesn't
shout across: "Hey out there! I love this girl over there!" Did she just thought
the word "love"?
Jessie's face turned red, when she saw Katie smiling at her. And just when Katie
started to say Hi, Jessie quickly looked the other way and hurried to the next
room.
Matt called Jessie two weeks after they met in the park. He asked her if she
could help him with one of his maths courses she had already taken last
semester.
Jessie liked Matt somehow, he wasn't one of the brightest guys she knew, but he
tried hard.
Well, and today was a lazy day, so she had time enough to help him. There was
just one thing, she didn't want to happen today: Meet Katie.
The door of the apartment opened slowly. After what seemed to be hours for
Jessie, someone appeared… Katie.